ThIs Is My OwN wEbPaGe

2006-09-03T02:17:00.000+09:00

The end of one chapter is the beginning of another.

And thus...

This is the end...

And so comes a new beginning. =)

Don't You...?

2006-05-07T02:25:00.000+09:00

when you love someone, don't you:
want to tell them ' i love you '
tell them that you care
look after them when they are sick
and to assure them when they don't dare
to want to call them everyday
but don't have to speak a word
to want to say good morning and good night
but never have to part

when you love someone, don't you:
want to hold her
and count the stars with her
not to three but to a zillion
don't you wanna see her smile
and cheer her up if she's not
to laugh with her
and shed your tears together
to stand in front of her
when a storm comes rumbling near
to be with her
in her ups and downs
to be a shoulder, a hug for her
in the midst of her tears and frowns

when you love someone, don't you:
want to be with her every single moment
but dare not as it will cause her inconvenience
want to buy her everything she wants
even if it's not what she needs
to give her your all
but to accept only her heart
to do anything humanly possible
just to make her smile =)

or do you just want to love her
and be loved in return..............

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Randaom kapo-ing from another friend's bloggie.. hahaha.. colby huai.. though there are some slight alterations of the grammar.. hahah.. but.. the bulk of it all is the same.. do enjoy.. =)

Disclaimer: This poem doesn't mean anything.. just like to read other ppl's blog and kapo what's nice.. muahahahaha.. u might be next.. =d

Coffee...?

2006-05-06T13:06:00.000+09:00

THE MAYONNAISE JAR AND 2 CUPS OF COFFEE

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous yes.

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. "Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things -- your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favourite passions -- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house,and your car. The sand is everything else -- the small stuff." "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls."

The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

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kapo this thingy from a fren of mine.. actually it's sand.. hahaha.. a-ru..

Priority must be set to be able to achieve anything. What are the things important will be the golf balls. Don't make them the sand, or even the marbles. First things first. If it cannot be taken care of, what happens is the case of too many things, too little time. Distractions must be put away. Everything has a certain weightage of importance in our lives. Seek the one which are the most important and fulfill them first, then attend to the other stuffs.

And not forgetting to catch up with friends over a cup of coffee. It'll make your life much better and fun to live in. =)

anyway... i'm officially....
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on holiday break..~!
hahaha.. finally, exams are over le~! wuhoo~! and that accounts for mi so-long-never-update blog.. now is the time to slack abit.. coz i still got alot of things to do also.. mi DIP is coming up, total of 5 wks of rotting in lab, doing hardware stuffs so it's alright.. den still have emerge coming up~! the highlight for the month of june.. and after that will be mi orientation camp, insignur 2006.. after that will be NDP~! wuhoo~! hahaha.. gonna be so exciting..

everything's been quite normal recently.. hahaha.. envy ah-ma's trip to Taiwan though.. grrrr.. hahaha.. mi wan to go taiwan~! anyone wans to sponsor..? $1230 onli.. kekek.. got there for the Taiwan Emerge.. it's going to be a great event, i believe.. where all the youths will gather together.. gonna be a cool experience..

till mi next update.. ciaoz..

TV rant...

2006-04-26T14:12:00.000+09:00

Was reading the TV news on sunday (i think) and it reported about the 'special' olympics for the handicapped. (By the way, they are not disabled. Some are even better than us in some of the things which we can never succeed in.) So the news goes on and on. 2007. China. Blah blah blah. Yakati-yakati-yak. But then it came to bring out the representative/spokesperson for the 2007 event. The person was a mentally-challenged, not in the sense that he is deranged, but he has the IQ of 50.

Yes. 50. Half of what the normal human race would have.

But what struck me, is not his good looks. It's not that he's pitiful(some ppl would imagine a person with low IQ as one whose mouth is always open and saliva drooling by the side.), or that he's appealing for donations on TV. But what caught me was his spirit, his attitude.

The person was transferred to a special school due to his low IQ as he could not catch up with the rest of the class. But it was soon found out that he could run very well. And he trained hard in that. And he will be representing China in the field/atheltics event. And when asked how he felt that his chances of winning was, he said this:

"I believe that I would be able to do it even with such a condition(of being low IQ). But even if I do not conquer it, it will just be a bit more difficult for me to win it."

Wow. Not just the confidence, but the attitude. It will just be "a bit more difficult", not "impossible, cannot be done, very slim chance of winning." The never-say die attitude. I was unable to get his name, but his spirit really impacted me.

How many of us, would often throw in the towel, when we met with something that does not go our way? To give it all up, to call it quits? To say, I don't want to play anymore, it's not fun?

I believe many of us do.
So did Glenn Cunningham, Lance Armstrong, Martin Luther King Jr and Albert Einstein.
Glenn Cunningham, burnt in a fire so severely that doctors say he will never walk again, set the world's one-mile record in 1934.
Lance Armstrong, struck with cancer, got over it, went on to win the tour-de-France. Not once. Not twice. But 7 times. Continuously.
Martin Luther King Jr, borned in a black in a society filled with racial discrimination, but emerged as one of the greatest, well-known and respected writer on earth.
Albert Einstein, was regarded as a slow learner and retarded by his teachers. He is uneducable, they said. What's after that, was history.

But they had one thing in common. Not just any attitude. But a winning, overcoming, never-say-die attitude.

Albert Einstein: "I did not fail 999 times in making the lightbulb. I have just learnt 999 ways of how not to make the lightbulb."

Our attitude determines our altitude. So what is your attitude today?

Random rants

2006-04-20T00:44:00.000+09:00

Think 1 wk ago, went to this place to eat. Mahattan Fish Market. It is situated at Plaza Singapura, 6th storey. Near the foodcourt area. The place is very nice, though a bit not veri bright.. hahaha.. food wise, quite similar to fish & co but it got their own unique point also. Quite nice la, but only problem is during peak hour can get quite... noisy... hahaha.. other than that, the place is alright and nice for a group outing or even a night with ur special someone (haha..). Pricing wise, affordable. Cheaper than Fish & Co and we felt it's quite worth it. Service wise still quite ok, nice and observant people. Waiting time is quite alright but the food makes it worth the wait. But something we still can't understand though, why they keep on showing footages of fishes and sharks when we were having our meal.. hmmm.. hahaha..

Just caught quite a funny pic over at that place...

NDP training is starting soon le.. so exciting~! Hahaha.. going to train like mad like that.. going to turn dark (think Darshan.. hahaha..), muscular(think Robin or Rallen.. ooo..) .. Hopefully.. hehe.. Alot of stuffs are coming up soon.. NDP, Emerge stuffs, DIP (Design and Innovation Project), finding holiday jobs, orientation camps.. Wuhoo~! And it's gonna be.. alright.. packed holidays.. wowz.. but looking veri forward to it..

Anyway, today is the 2nd day of my 10-day break till my next paper. Wuhoo~! hahaha.. got to start studying soon~! hehehe.. just leet mi rest a while more..................... =x

Mi want to watch shows also~! At last got someone accompanying mi to watch Ice Age 2 le.. hahaha.. I also want to watch some others: Take the Lead, Eight Below.. All the shows look veri nice..

Nothing to update about my life.. Kinda similar to mugger coz it's during the exam period.. hahaha.. been practising soccer for the past few wks.. veri fun with titus, keeve, tristan they all.. learn alot of stuffs and enjoyed myself.. a hilarious bunch and hardworking people.. We even played with "International" players (with China and French students.. hehehe..) and the "Youth" team (some of the Xingnan pri sch team strikers played with us wor.. mai xiao xiao.. talented youngsters for Singapore..? Kekeke..). Maybe got friendly versus the sercurity ministry people.. hahaha.. interesting.. Our competition match coming up on the 29th April~! hahaha.. Come support me and my champion team~! kekeke.. Just found out that I'm supposed to donate blood that same weekend.. hmmm.. i pray i will be able to survive everything and not faint halfway.. *looks at Del* hahahaha..

Songwriting is very hardwork considering most of the time is the short time limit given. Was told quite last minute to come out with a song within 3 days.. stressed.. hahaha.. now completed the intro and chorus.. left the pre-lude, stanza and maybe bridge.. hahaha.. but I'm loving it~ balabapapa.. man.. i believe i can do it~! God guide me..

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Quote - "God's commands are not always accompanied by reasons, but always by promises," - F.B

We don't have to understand everything.

Much of life contains mysteries. This calls for trust.

If we have to 'see' before we 'believe', we have joined the Thomas generation.

Believing before we 'see' introduces us to greater blessing.

If we don't understand why bad things happen, we need to engage trust, rather than cynicism.

Do what God says even when you don't understand why.

Trust Him.

He knows what He's talking about.
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Easter post

2006-04-10T15:36:00.000+09:00

Consuming Fire By Hillsong

There must be more than this
O breath of God come breathe within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for You

Fill us anew we pray
Fill us anew we pray

Consuming fire, fan into flame
A passion for Your name
Spirit of God (won't you) fall in this place
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way with us

Come like a rushing wind
Clothes us with power from on high
Now set the captives free
Leave us abandoned to Your praise

Lord let Your glory fall
Lord let Your glory fall

Stir it up in our hearts Lord
Stir it up in our hearts Lord
Stir it up in our hearts Lord
A passion for Your name

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was introduced to this song by by fren cum member, tan yaw.. dun think he'll get to read this but anyway.. hahaha.. (can say bad things abt him.. hahaha.. kidding.. i'm such a nice guy.. QUIET AND KIND.. muahahahah..)

Looking forward to Easter~! wuhoo~! So fast, it's april.. It's not just about a celebration, it's not just about games and fun, it's not about easter bunnys and eggs (though they are pretty cute).. Easter is more about that..

Easter is all about love.

Sacrificial love. Unconditional love.

The love that was willing to come all the way from Heaven, to put away His glory, to come to earth and lived as a human for 33 1/2 years, amongst us.
The love that came to heal the brokenedhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, to bring recovery of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed.
The love that shown uncondemning love to the sinners, the tax-collectors, the prostitutes and was very willing to fellowship with them and be their friend.
The love that saw the needs of the people and met them each and every one of them, because He cared.
The love that knew what His ultimate purpose was, a greater purpose which no one knew at that time.
The love that was humiliated, ridiculed, mocked, ignored, abandoned, on His way to Via Dolorosa.
The love that was whipped, slapped and crucified on the on the Cross of Calvary.

No greater love than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.

But He did not stayed in His grave forever.
On the third day, He rose again.
The death, the burial, the resurrection.
He went through it. Not for Himself. But for all the humans that was on earth, yesterday, today and tomorrow. For people like you and me. So that we can be reconciled back to God, the Father.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." - John 3:16

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Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear You cried
Is precious in His eyes

Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door

Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come
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So what decision are you going to make this Easter..? =)

Focus Purpose

2006-04-07T03:09:00.001+09:00

Purpose

Purpose has pain with it. Sometimes the pain associated with purpose, is when you have to make sacrifices of your time, of your money, of your energy. When you have to say no when everybody else is having fun, and you have to say no, because you are focused on your purpose.
- A. R. Bernard

Focus: -הִתְמַקֵּד , (in Hebrew) the concentration of attention or energy on something;

The power of focus

Where you are heading today, is due to the focusing of yesterday. If you are focusing on your strengths, you will grow stronger. If you focus on your weaknesses, you will grow weaker. Focus on the Spirit, you will be more spirit-filled. Focus on the flesh, you will be more carnal. Focus on your purpose, and you will realise it is much greater than you have ever thought or imagined. Know where you are going. Focus means also to be single-minded, not to be distracted by circumstances.

So what are you focusing on today? What is your purpose?

Ask of Him, and it'll shall be made known to you. He has a great destiny prepared for you. Only if you are willing to find it. Seek and it shall be found.

Purpose of our lives: Philippians 3:12 - 14
12 Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. 13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

To fulfill His calling that He has prepared for you and me. An individual calling each, nothing short of the extraordinary. Believe and receive, nothing is impossible to him who believes.

2006-04-05T01:11:00.000+09:00

Improvement Is Guaranteed To Those Who Are Willing To Change.

Hebrews 12:1 (NKJV)“Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.”

Unless you embrace the process of change you will not grow. All significant change begins when you make the choice to dismantle the weights of life that hinder you from achieving your dreams. Those weights come in different forms – wrong relationships, laziness, procrastination, negative attitudes, mediocrity, stagnation, apathy, and more. Letting go of these weights is not exciting, but the rewards of doing so definitely are.

Positive change is not automatic. Change is a decision. It’s not an easy task, but those who make the choice never regret it. Once you decide what you want and who you want to become, relentlessly pursue the necessary change.

Learning to Breathe by Switchfoot

2006-03-21T16:04:00.000+09:00

Learning to Breathe by Switchfoot

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need you
This is the way that I'm

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

So this is the way that I say I need you
This is the way that I say I love you
This is the way that I say I'm yours
This is the way, this is the way

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hmmmm.. time really flies... it's been quite a while since i updated the blog also.. hehehe.. mainly because mi laptop just went blank on mi... now i'm using the sch's computer to blog.. haiz............................ so sad..

hopefully it'll be repaired soon.. *haiz..*

last few wks have been quite... normal.. hahaha.. as usual.. the best was still the appreciation cum welcome Strikeforce gathering at benedict's house.. we literally tried to pack abt 100 ppl into his house.. hahaha.. A humongous Strikeforce family gathering.. thank God we din destroyed his whole house.. hahaha.. but overall it was really fun~ We watched drumline, some other performancing team like the Blue Man Group, the DCI (Drum Call International), the Hip Pickles, and quite a few others.. really opened alot of our eyes to alternative drumming.. maybe next time, it'll be the strikeforce's turn..? It's not veri far away, i believe.. pastor Tan came over and talked to us abt alot of stuffs, e.g. the unity in Strikeforce was one of our most powerful traits, to be running together with the vision that God has given to bro boon.. and really it's the catalyst to propel us into greater greatness and unknowns which we might not even think it is possible.. Only to those who Believe, All things are Possible..

Oh oh oh.. not fogetting the SFV (Strikeforce Funninest Video).. hahaha.. kudos to the hamster for the hands-down victory.. with nick's UDM drop as the close second and 3rd came collin, with his collin-ation performance.. hahaha.. onli 2 words to describe him.. Commitment and Passion.. hahaha.. it's was too hilarious and everyone was trying not to laugh too hard.. really, it was a fun and enjoyable night..

EMERGE 2006 is coming~! YEAH~! so exciting.. was looking thru the lists and found out there are alot of things i want to join and participate (some of them i have alreadi been volunteered by other ppl liaoz.. hmmmm... ) hahaha.. here's the list: (hopefully can take part in them)

1) Preaching Challenge - Male Non-Cell Group Leader
2) Extreme Sports
a) Street basketball 3-on-3 (volunteered by mi NTU ppl)
b) Soccer 11-a-side (volunteered by mi zone ppl)
c) Captain's Ball (volunteered by mi cg N341)
3) Talentime
a) Songwriting - still thinking whether go solo or group.. hmmm..
b) Drama - super unsure.. coz no cast as yet.. hahaha..
4) Cybergames Challenge - "Counterstrike" LAN gaming challenge - should be joining with mi cg guys ba.. hahaha.. coz we got 'secret weapon'.. muhahahah..
5) Word power - hopefully can get pass round 2 this time.. hahaha..

wuhoo... so many events.. muahahaha.. as u can see.. alot of sports stuffs.. so help in mi weight loss too~ hehe.. just like i've promised someone.. =) Trainings will start soon and i feel it'll hit right before mi exams.. haiz.. have to re-schedule mi timetable den.. lalalalalala..

apart from that, there will also be an EMERGE event all the way over in Taiwan too.. *drools* the first ever to be held in Taiwan.. and i felt something that says i need to go to help out and stuffs.. but really really need to pray for finances.. $1230.. *gasp* pray for great blessings.. hahaha..

that's all le, dudes and dudettes.. till next time.. chill but dun be too cold.. =x

Somewhere Out There

2006-03-09T11:08:00.000+09:00

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true
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was at plaza singapura last nite to search for something.. and kinda interesting.. saw 1 whole group of.. hmmm.. feminine males..? hahaha.. kinda of interesting, i feel, and most of them looked veri fierce (like ah bengs and fighters) but their actions a bit erm... hehehe.. actually, most of such ppl r quite frenly people coz i know quite a few.. apart from their *ahem*, they r just like normal people like u and i, living in this world together..

this wk's been quite normal to me la.. normal days, normal everyday life.. but recently spending more time hiding myself in the library in my attempts to study.. oh ya.. also met up with some of mi frens for dinner and stuffs.. (sob sob.. there goes mi weight loss program.. *wails*)

feels so sleepy at this time of the day..

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Leaders are influencers, they have the ability to obtain followers.

How true.

The only difference is whether you have a good leader or a bad leader.
A bad leader points everyone to himself. A good leader points the people to a greater purpose.

Throughout history, the best example would be Adolf Hitler. He was a great and powerful leader. Many people are being influenced by him. However, he led the people to himself and led to the destruction of major part of Europe, mass genocide of the Jews, and left the whole of Europe paralysed for the next few years. He was a great leader, but yet turn the world upside down for the wrong reasons.

So what type of leader will you be?
What kind of influencers will you be?
Will you be the person that others will follow?

Real leadership is more than having authority; It's being the person others will gladly and confidently follow.
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He has made everything beautiful in its time

2006-03-06T02:04:00.000+09:00

Ecclesiastes 3

Everything Has Its Time

1 To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
2 A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
3 A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
4 A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
7 A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
8 A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.

The God-Given Task
9 What profit has the worker from that in which he labors?
10 I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied.
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.

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wow... was reading the bible and basically this line really shot at me.. and really.. most of the time we have our own plans and we just want God to bless it for us and do it on our behalf so that it can benefit us.. and sometimes, we lose the focus on putting Him first instead of putting ourselves.. our agenda, our wishes, our desires.. bible says, seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and all His righteousness and ALL these things shall be added unto you.. Prioritize, Focused, Purpose, Vision, etc.. To be the person God wants me to be..

past few days have been veri veri veri eventful.. hahaha.. mi life was kinda topsy-turvy.. turning round and round like the inside of a washing machine.. coz of some stuffs which only a few people will know.. but i believe that He will bring me through it, no matter how much it hurts, I will just have to move on, go on with my life..

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* To a friend...

Thanks for the things u have done for me
The time we spend, the sacrifices u made
The things that u did.. will be the sweetest memory to me
Just hope we can be the friends that we used to be

I know He will make everything beautiful in its time
I pray that He will guide ur ways through all the days of ur life
Be one who is fulfilling ur greatest calling and destiny in Him
And till our paths meet again...............................
Take care, my most beloved friend
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Easter message

2006-03-02T10:48:00.000+09:00

so here I am on My knees
in the Garden of Gethsemane
will You take this cup from My hands
here I'm praying all I can

My lovely twelve have fallen asleep
they still can't stay an hour with Me
very soon the guards will arrive
they want Me dead but they'll take Me alive

as a fight ensue, and one lost an ear
I still love him and he'll know Me a healer
I look at one as they drag Me away
there was Judas without a word to say

I was sent to one who looked lost at Me
he proclaimed no guilt in Me
the rest of them wanted Me dead
he washed his hands off this matter instead

as they tore those stripes right on My back
thirty nine stripes on Me to be exact
I knew in eternity there would be no time
and one of them denied Me three times

on the Via Dolorosa, the Way of Suffering
some mocked Me, while some were crying
an eighty kilogram cross on My back
as a thorny crown rests on My head

nailed to the very cross I carried
lifted up for the world to see
I know that this death was temporary
this time it was the sin of the world on Me

I went down to hell to claim what's Mine
the souls of the ones who were lost in time
the keys of hell is now in My hands
the devil has no right to attempt

so now here I am for the world to see
as I ascend to where I should be
one day the sun will lose it's flames
then the world will know who truly reigns
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words from a fren's blog.. ian to be exact.. really a literature guy..? hahaha..

Simple yet Powerful.. And thus the reason for Easter.. the celebration of the resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ, whom for us has won the victory over death.. and He's definitely alive today, seated at the right hand of the Father, interceding for us and praying for us..

A friend who was willing to die for me, and go down to hell to grab the keys for my freedom of eternity.. what a great friend I have~! And u can know Him too, I can introduce you to Him.. He'll be glad to know you.. =)

Cried at night

2006-03-01T03:26:00.000+09:00

hmmmm... first day of the new month... 1st of March... hahaha.. and i'm still awake blogging.. dunno y i'm still awake at this time, considered that i onli slept 2 hours last nite.. hahaha.. weird rite..? hopefully i dun KO over tomolo until mi test is over.. should be able to score well ba.. coz the topic is not quite difficult also, thanx to a great tutor.. kekeke..

Monday, was quite an eventful day.. went sch, after that went with a beautiful, awesome, incredible and fantastic(haha.. familiar..?) girl to watch 'Xiao Hai Bu Ben 2' aka I not Stupid Too.. It was a great movie.. really cried buckets.. think the whole cinema was almost flooded by all the movie-goers tears.. The story line is quite simple but yet so heartlander style, whereby everyone can relate too.. guess this is y so many people r being touched by the show, including urs truly.. after that, went out with some of mi frens for supper.. (and i wonder where i get mi fats from..? hmmmm..) ya.. and was able to rush to the last train back..

on the last day of feb, celebrated bro boon's birthday~! so special rite.. last day of feb.. 28/2.. so cool.. special birthday for such a special leader for such a special time as this.. we bought for him a cake, and a toy drum.. supposed to play 'Happy birthday' on the toms but was told not to do so coz echo too loud le.. and Alvin was officially promoted to Emperor~! (hahaha.. inside joke.. ranking of space cadets)hehehe.. so a veri fun time of fellowship and chocolate cake.. after that, went back with jaan, sarah, esmond and wendy.. quite a funny group and crappy too.. reached home, totally wan to KO le.. still got some stuffs have to talk to parents about..

yupz.. that's all le ba.. wednesday le.. so fast it'll be the wkends again~ hahaha..

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After that fateful phonecall, I cried
With no one around, except my pillow on my bed
Thinking of you and me thoughout the night
Until the earth showed the first sign of sunlight

This was not the ending I've hoped for
This was not the ending that I want to see
How did we become like this?
It was not how it was supposed to be

And time flies by
With the sound of your voice
It's close to paradise
With the end surely near

The times we shared, the times we played
And about the last time that we started to pray
I've never meant to hurt you in any single way
Forgive me for what I have done today

Why does tonight have to end?
Why dont we hit restart
And pause it at our favorite parts
We'll skip the goodbyes
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love

2006-02-27T00:46:00.000+09:00

it's the weekends again.. so fast.. holidayz over le.. sob sob..

attended Choon whee's and Shirley's holy matrimony yesterday.. simply fantastic, awesome, incredible and beautiful~! hahaha.. so sweet.. they met each other for 3 yrs and happened to be in the same ministry too.. wowz.. hahaha.. wonder how would mine turn out..? hahaha.. think too much le la.. not the time for that as yet... =d

end of the holidayz is near.. going back to mugging soon.. gonna miss mi resting dayz.. where i can sleep till noon.. hehe.. i believe this sem will continue to be a great one.. and it'll turn out the best..

tv got a new program.. do u think u can dance.. something like the american idol but it's all abt dancing.. kinda interesting.. hahaha.. maybe i'll pick up break-dancing again.. keke.. it's fun~ maybe not the extreme ones.. but the light ones.. i still muz consider mi age factor though i love to dance..

it's so late at night yet i'm still not sleepy.. weird.. and i need to start mugging in school from tomorrow onwards.. maybe once a wk..? hahaha.. so many things to do, so little time.. i need to preoccupy mi time well.. time management.. hahaha..

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Teach me how not to think of you
Teach me how not to dream of you
Teach me how not to miss any of you
Teach me how not to fall in love with you
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Someday we'll know

2006-02-24T14:57:00.000+09:00

Someday We'll Know by Switchfoot

Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving, I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday We'll Know
If love can move a mountain
Someday We'll Know
Why the sky is blue
Someday We'll Know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time... tonight

Someday We'll Know
If love can move a mountain
Someday We'll Know
Why the sky is blue
Someday We'll Know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday We'll Know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One Day I'll go
Dancin on the moon
Someday You'll Know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watch the stars crash into the sea
If I could ask God just one question...
Why aren't you here with me?...tonight

Someday We'll Know
If love can move a mountain
Someday We'll Know
Why the sky is blue
Someday We'll Know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday We'll Know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One Day I'll go
Dancin on the moon
Someday You'll Know
That I was the one for you

i'm having a quiz in 6 hours time and i'm still here blogging.. hahha.. and it's supposedly mi break this wk... having a test during the holidays..? onlu NTU is crazy enough to do it... at 7-8PM at night somemore... argh...

3 days since i last blogged.. hahaha.. nothing memorable happened.. execpt maybe studying with frens is the most exciting thing i did for the past few days.. hahaha.. oh ya.. badminton sessions with the NTU ppl.. fun.. and i sprained mi ankle once again.. kinda numb alreadi... =d

finding a job soon~ yeah.. hopefully the call will come, in a positive way.. if not, i've got a backup job.. muahahaha.. God indeed is an awesome God.. the one who resurrected Jesus from the grave, also resurrected my dreams and visions.. and it is going to be so exciting to see each one of them unfolding before ur veri eyes.. gotta trust Him for all the things He's gonna do, that's what faith is all about isn't it..?

Forsaking All I Trust Him..

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I know I can't let go
I know coz I've tried
And all the oceans and seas could not hold back
All the tears that I've cried
But I know my tears are not wasted
Coz You are the One always there
To comfort me, to guide me, to teach me
And embrace me with Your loving, tender care
Thank You once again for believing in me
And I will be stronger, to be the person I've meant to be
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2006-02-22T01:51:00.000+09:00

Ephesians 5:33 (Amplified Bible)

However, let each man of you [without exception] love his wife as [being in a sense] his very own self; and let the wife see that she respects and reverences her husband [that she notices him, regards him, honors him, prefers him, venerates, and esteems him; and that she defers to him, praises him, and loves and admires him exceedingly].

Haha. =D

(Hope i will not face persecutions from the ladies out there. haha.. anyway, it's from the word of God wad.. =d )

Tiger Lily

2006-02-22T01:37:00.000+09:00

Tiger Lily by Matchbook Romance

We drive tonight
And you are by my side
We're talking about our lives
Like we've known each other forever

Time flies by
With the sound of your voice
It's close to paradise
With the end surely near

And if I could only stop the car
And hold onto you
And never let go (And never let go)
I'll never let go (I'll never let go)

As we round the corner to your house
You turn to me and said
"I'll be going through withdrawal of you
For this one night we have spent."

And I want to speak these words
But I guess i'll just bite my tongue
And accept someday, somehow
As our words that we'll hang from
And I I don't wanna speak these words
'Cause I I don't wanna make things any worse

Why does tonight have to end?
Why dont we hit restart
And pause it at our favorite parts
We'll skip the goodbyes

If I had it my way
I'd turn the car around
And run away
Just you and I

And I I don't wanna speak these words
'Cause I I don't wanna make things any worse
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hahaha.. recently been listening to quite alot of rock songs all thanks to botak hamster and liting.. coz of *top secret mission*.. hahaha.. so cannot reveal.. kinda falling in love with rock songs.. veri catchy and veri lovely songs.. hahaha.. more rock songs~

things are going good recently, enjoying mi 1 wk holiday with all studies and revision for the upcoming quizzes.. haiz.. not much time i can enjoy mi holidays.. so can see how lovely mi life is.. hahaha.. gonna find new jobs soon.. need more money.. so many things to do, so little time..

learn quite alot of things from mi fren recently.. on how to replace things.. on how do u avoid failure..? to replace it with success.. how to stop procrastination..? replace it with something meaningful.. how to mend that hatred, unforgiveness..? replace it with love and forgetfulness.. how to stop thinking about someone, something..? replace it with something else...

seriously, quite funny how some ppl maybe so similar to another after u r willing to spend time to know that person more.. hahaha.. confusing..? try spending more time with ppl whom u r not super duper close to and u'll know what i mean.. kekeke.. communication.. kind of amazing.. =)

Man was never created to be alone but to fellowship with other people..
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Difference between success and failure is the decision.
Difference between the good and the best is in the details.
Difference between our best and God's best is in the divine.
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Wonderwall By Oasis

2006-02-16T14:18:00.000+09:00

Wonderwall by Oasis
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you but I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now
And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that
I would like to say to you but I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
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time pass and went.. been abt how long..? one month since i last updated this thingy.. hahaha..
everything's been ok recently, over my life over everything... been quiet lately.. thinking of some stuffs which could change the whole eternity.. hahaha.. adulthood kinda adding more things to think of and not forgetting the ones u begin with when we were young..
dropped by orchard on valentines'.. and the whole place is packed with couples and people.. especially flower sellers at every corner (seriously.. if not, most corners) of orchard.. and 1 rose going for $6-7.. i think i'll start growing mi own roses den sell them cheaper at valentines' day.. hahaha.. 100% profit.. think this is the time where all the gift shops owner, flowershop owners, hotel managers, etc will be the most happy coz alot of $$$ flow that day.. maybe i'll join them in the distant future..? hahaha.. distant coz i dun have a gf yet and i dun think i'm ready yet.. hahaha..
actually who is St Valentine..? He was this great man, who went against the corrupted emperor and govt who opposed to marriages and celebrations. ( weird king) anyway.. St Valentine went against the ruling and brought forth the first Valentines' day, to spend with our the other half, loved ones, friends.. not to be exploited for monetary gains.. hahaha..
my vday was spent... at airport sending mi fren off~! hahaha.. nothing much doing also.. running here and there like chicken run.. making arrangements, etc.. but basically spent it with frens la.. and beat at least spending it alone.. = d
month of Feburary is already half gone.. so fast.. next wk is mi break~! den 7 more wks of mundane work, and exams.. hahaha.. how exciting.. but i believe this sem will be mi turning point and i'll be shining for Him in the marketplace..
ya.. i feel my bed is calling me.. time to dive in and sleep.. hahaha..
sleep tight everybody..
go to sleep now, close your eyes..

Dwelling Places

2006-01-31T05:32:00.000+09:00

Dwelling Places by Hillsongs

Lovely are Your dwelling places
Thirsty I come after You
Jesus my joy, my reward
Your love's restoring my soul
Now I'm Yours and You are mine
And from my heart a song will rise

I love You, I love You, I love You
I love You, I love You, I love You
I love You, I love You, I love You
And my heart will follow wholely after You

Jesus there is none beside You
Righteous ruler of the earth
Nations will come and bow down
Name over all names, I sing You praises
And all that I can say to You is

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was walking home tonight from a midnight movie with some of mi frens, i.e. mi cell group members... watched fun with Dick and Jane at marina... funny and lame movies but we all felt it was not really worth 9.50... hahaha.. but kinda of fun and enjoyable la... not bad not bad...

and I walked home all the way from Suntec... hahaha... yeah... i did it... part of it was i wan to slim down (walking does cut alot of fats, if u do not know... haha... ) and also part of it was that there are some stuffs i need to think it through veri thoroughly.. and really, while walking the road home, i was really reminded of this song and really it overwhelmed mi... ever got a song that whenever u hear it, it'll just melts ur heart..? this was the song and i really kinda teared... hahaha... imagine a guy weeping outside chimes.. kekeke.. think all the ppl thought i was dumped or wad... hahaha.. anyway, i was reminded how God loved each and every single one of us... He has 6 billion children living in this time and He remembers everyone by name... that's so woah... (imagine the porcupine in Chicken Little.. haha.. inside joke) some of us couldn't even remember the name of our classmates... hahaha... He forgives everything that we did wrong in His sight if we are willing to confess our mischievous acts... Whenever we are dirtied, He wans to clean us up again and let us run along... kinda like the ideal parent, isn't it..? Coz He is, He is our Abba Father, Daddy in Heaven... For all He's done, I will forever live for Him.. Coz He was the one who changed my life and loved me for not who I was or who I will be, but for who I am... Yeah~ =D

it's 5 AM~! hahaha... think i will KO soon.. need to study soon liaoz... haiz... hahaha...

Love is in the air

2006-01-24T02:48:00.000+09:00

Looking at the bright moonlight
without a single cloud in sight
i'm just lying on my bed
with that comfy pillow resting my head

somehow, the image of u just flashed acrossed my mind
have mine ever appeared in yours too?
and thinking how much things would have change
if i am yours, and you are mine

the smile on ur face, lighting up the entire sky
my world will crumble if i ever see u cry
the paths that we walked, the songs that we sang
the stories of how everything began

the walk across the bridge to fullerton one
the stargazing in cloudless sky
the shopping at far east, orchard and queensway
the places where we went to buy and buy and buy

the trip to the zoo was so much fun
especially with all the teasing and laughter along the way
the dinner atmosphere was romantic and unique
not forgetting that it was valentines' day

the times we studied together and played
the times where u were rushing for ur project to complete, working for 6pm to 4
the times where i patiently waited for u for 2 hours
the times where u tolerated my flaws

life without you will be different
i knew for i've been through it before
the path of the lonliness
is one that i shall walk no more

coz i've found u, no longer in my dreams
but in every sense of reality
the hands that we tightly hold together
is the promise that we'll always look after each other

God created woman out of a ribcage of a man
so that she is not ahead of him
nor is she supposed to be behind him
but beside him to support him and to be protected by him

so i thank you for all the things u've for me
thank you for walking beside me all these times
now there's one more thing that i need to do
to say these words again, "i love you"

*hahaha.. trying veri hard to learn new way of writing.. so enjoy.. feel free to comment.. keke..
*The story is ficticious. Any character bearing any resemblence is purely coincidence. =d

2006-01-23T02:34:00.000+09:00

yeah.. mi first post of the year 2006~! hahaha.. after great 'persuasion' from xiao zhu (muahaha.. aka hei bai zhu). Now birth a brand new year for all of us.. a new beginning, a totally new chapter.. even if the last chapter was bad, at least now everything can start all over again.. that's y everyone likes new year i guess.. so that everything can start afresh.............. how true..

oh ya.. time to update on mi dec events.. hahaha.. i started working somewhere i the mid of dec i think.. can't remember when le.. at this shop called 'bibi & baba'.. cousin of ali baba.. kekeke.. j/k.. it was a distributor for sch uniforms la.. got ACJC, RJC, all the different sec schs, hotels and restaurants.. kinda of big business.. alot of ppl under them.. and the ppl there are quite frenly, fun to work with and play with too.. hahaha.. so i was posted to a sec sch to help in the sales of uniforms.. and it was NUSHS.. hahaha.. guess the sch name..? hahaha.. it was National University of Singapore High School.. wowz.. it's a place of IP (integrated programme) whereby students studies 6 yrs of sec sch with higher level den go straight to uni.. arghh.. y wasn't it offered to mi batch..? haiz..

the people were fun too.. as in mi fellow collegues.. got jason, joel, yiling, huimin, huixin, a giraffe which looks suspiciously like a brown spotted cow coz of its short neck (we spent 1 hour debating on whether is it a cow or a giraffe.. hahaha.. quite bored la..) the 1st day was super xiong wor.. nearly died-ed.. but veri fun.. and i learnt basic accounting also.. hahaha.. imagine all the stress when the cashier amt and the invoice doesn't match.. end up doing OT to try to find the missing/surplus money.. hahaha..

after that, it was christmas~! hahaha.. nothing much been doing.. except got christmas celebration and stuffs..but kinda of common stuffs which ppl would do.. just a normal christmas.. or too quiet in fact.. but nevertheless, it was good.. hahaha..

new year, we were counting down at the middle of kembangan area.. hahaha.. kinda unique.. maybe becoz they r mi cg members.. all of us r uniquely shaped.. in features, characters, likes & dislikes, favourites, etc.. den we went over to jason's house and watched chicken little and played some games.. and most ppl were KO-ed in the wee hours liaoz.. hahaha.. next day, tried to have breakfast but we felt that we missed our beds more so most of us left without breakfast..

lately, been busy with sch stuffs.. hahaha.. lectures, tutorialz, etc.. still trying mi best to cope.. and i know this year will be better, coz He has created it so for mi~! hahaha.. a year of greater victories, greater breakthrough, greater anointing.. nothing is going to be impossible to be done~!

CNY round the corner also le.. soon need to buy all the nian huo.. and all the goodies.. and all the meat.. yum yum yum.. so fun.. hahah.. but during CNY is most prob stay at home and play games, coz most prob not going back malaysia this year.. dunno y also.. haiz.. anyway, it's going to be a lllloooonnnggg holiday.. =d

till next time... ciaoz...

Long Time ago

2005-12-06T03:43:00.000+09:00

hahaha.. it's been centuries that i've updated this online thingy... times backdated that mi last update was a whole 3 mths back.. in sep 2005.. ooooo..

Hmmmm.. what should i share..? nothing much really.. i'll try to update it as often as possible.. but sometimes, just too lazy abt doing it.. hahaha.. just can't be bothered also.. hahaha..

brief summary of the things that happened..
in October.. nothing much.. actually is can't remember.. most probably preparing for exams.. hahaha..

November.. definitely exams..

Deember now.................... CHRISTMAS IS HERE~!

mai dong xi, chi dong xi, mai dong xi, chi dong xi, mai dong xi, chi dong xi... gonna buy so many stuffs.. but no money.. sob sob.. hahaha.. so going to work soon~ so exiting..

so until next time.. bye~

You're Beautiful

2005-09-28T00:36:00.000+09:00

My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel, of that i'm sure
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You're beautiful
You're beautiful
I saw your face in a crowded place
And i don't know what to do
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
but i can't escape the truth
I will never be with you

You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful it's true
there must be an angel with a smile on her face
who thought up i must be with you
but it's time to face the truth
I will never be with you
.......... " You're Beautiful " - James Blunt ..........

Hahahaha.. it's a month-anniversary~! that i never update mi blog that is.. hahaha.. coz there's nothing much to update also.. hahaha.. ok.. here goes.. whatever i went thru the past month..

let me see.. erm.. got a tuition job~! Finally... and it's a p6 girl.. but really trying to make her speak is harder than doing a thuosand push up.. hahaha.. she's TOO quiet.. and that's a problem i need to solve too.. coz i dunno if she understands anot.. most of the time i think she doesn't understand.. argh.. and onli 1 mth more to her PSLE.. stressed.. hahaha.. but i believe i can help her do well~! muz confess it.. hahaha.. but so far, the girl has been ok.. very weak in her maths.. and english.. and chinese.. haiz.. jia you wor~!

I'M A PART TIME MODEL~! hahaha.. now that i got ur attention.. hahaha.. i was given this job by mi fren, grace.. for agape communications.. hahaha.. and i was involved in an advertisement for aircon company.. ahhaha.. maybe u saw it before.. do not fret.. it's me.. hahaha.. quite an interesting experience.. and good pay too~! hahaha.. *prays that there will be more such oppotunities* hahaha.. it doesn't hurt to have more money rite..? kekeke..

watched alot of shows recently, coz being going out with the gang, namly mac, jas, and jason.. hahaha.. late nite supper, movies, crapping sessions.. oh my.. mi tummy is growing le.. hahaha.. gotta start running soon.. or i can train for IHG.. though i most of the time cannot go for the training.. hahaha.. slim down slim down.. too fat le.. time to go dieting liaoz.. kekeke..

other than that, life's been quite good.. ups and downs are part and parcel of life, i guess.. just learn to deal with it and get over it.. no amount of teaching can help u.. it's ur experience that will add to ur knowledge..

nothing much to update, this is such a normal life.. hahahaha.. now u can see y i seldom update le.. kekeke..

-= God, strengthen me.. let me go back to the place where i can seek You once again.. =-

Hmmmmm..

2005-08-26T02:33:00.000+09:00

Hmmmm.. quite sometime i have blogged le.. hahaha.. a bit can't-be-bothered and also nothing much to blog also.. kekeke..

finally changed mi blog skin le.. a bit girlish, i think.. haha.. but i like the design.. quite nice.. can't really find much (if any) better than mi old one.. haha.. song was picked from somewhere which i forgot where also.. hahahha..

nothing's been happening to me lately.. past wk has been quite uneventful.. haha.. ur normal case of studies.. and church and Strikeforce.. only eventful nights are when joy, rallen, karen and michael came over to NTU to have dinner.. joy was busy doing make-up den her hand slipped and she got a new curry-flavoured make-up kit.. rallen got food poisoning after eating at the western food.. *gasp* wonder how come alot of ppl eat also no problem but when he ate, den he kena food poisoning.. hmmmm.. muz be auntie dun like him.. added "extra ingredients".. hahaha.. they had ice-cream waffles.. which all of them like.. hahaha.. other than that, other nights, were out.. went bs, go SF prac for the NTU performance.. blah blah blah.. kinda guess wad boring life i live.. haha.. quizzes coming up le so have to study too.. Pst Sy Rogers workshop was superb.. really gave mi a new perspective of stuffs which we never thought possible.. and it was a hilarious time, base on Pst Sy's character..

lalallalalalallalalalaa..

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Just Another Story

looking at the past
when we were together
the times that we had
were of tears and joy
the paths that we walked
thru the rain and shine
made our relationship stronger

remember the day when we first met?
it was still so fresh in my mind
ur eyes, ur sweet smellng hair and ur ever-cheerful smile
were the reason that u captivated me
remember the letters that we always exchange with each other?
i often look towards them
and they are still safely kept, neatly in a box
sometimes, i still do look at them
about the past where we had been
remember the time when i got tongue-tied in front of u?
u were and still are the first one to make me do so
remember the times that we shared, used to meet up after sch?
the days of carefree nonsensical rubbish
remember the day that u were about to fly off?
i was there at the airport, unwilling to let go
remember the time........
now, they will always be remembered as memories

the memories that we shared
will never be erased
and i will promise u
that u will never be replaced
coz u will always have a
special place in my heart =)
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Forever love

2005-08-15T03:41:00.000+09:00

Forever love.. Forever love..

Another weekend

2005-08-13T03:08:00.000+09:00

another week has just passed.. and i took part in

NDP 2005~!! wuhoo~!~!~!
hahaha.. quite a fun experience i would say.. played STOMP and malay medley.. but still the fellowship of Strikeforce grows stronger by the day~! funz~!~! hahaha.. we performed at Jurong field there.. quite packed la.. and quite stoning there for a long while.. though we had a free flow of ice-cream~! nice.. kekeke.. everyone took at least 3 sticks each..? this is the minimum liaoz.. got SOME ppl took abt 5-8 sticks..*looks around*.. hahaha.. quite fun and an unforgettable experience..

school's packed.. and it doesn't help with half of the time trying to understand what the lecturer is talking abt.. xianz.. trying to study with frens to understand better but somehow everyone's stuck somewhere.. haha.. think will have to ask tutor for help soon.. haiz..

some things have been running thru mi mind for quite some time.. and somehow, some things just have no solutions to them.. just allow u to think over it and left u hanging halfway in the sky.. ever got that type of feeling before..? u got questions and were never answered and somehow in the future, u'll think of it again and feels sort of deja vu.. questions with no answers..? sort of.. but then why is there such a question in the first place..?? hmmmm.. chim.. head.. pain.. haiz..

yeah.. gonna have a STOMP performance in NTU soon~! Hootz~! gotta come out with the whole sequence.. all by miself..~~!! and with only 3 days to come out with the full sequence and 2 days to prac den........... hahha.. coolz xia.. but i like~! hahaha.. but we'll gonna rock the place down~! yeah~! but the thought of carrying the toms around for lectures and tutorials.. veri -_-'''... hahaha.. unless gab can get a car.. *prays*

think that's all le ba.. week's ending with mi still up early blogging.. hahaha.. i should be posting pics up soon la so take note.. =d

My personality... true or false..?

2005-08-05T13:04:00.000+09:00

ISFP - the Composer
You scored 27% I to E, 52% N to S, 9% F to T, and 52% J to P!

Your type is best described by the single word "composer", which belongs to the larger group, experiencers. You are very in touch with the physical world, and have an eye for detail. You are likely to be very artistic in some form or another. You don't wish to lead at all. Your attitude is very much "live and let live" to the point that others may have accused you of having no opinions or ambitions. You share your personality type with 10% of the population.As a romantic partner, you are nuturing and supportive, often putting your partner's needs before your own. You struggle when you feel anger or resentment, because the last thing you want to do is engage in confrontation. You need patience, support, and encouragement to discuss problems in constructive ways (as opposed to not at all.) You want a deep and intimate connection with your partner. You feel most appreciated when your partner is grateful for your thoughtfulness and willingness to help. You most want your partner to reciprocate with spontaneous thoughtful acts to show you how important you are to them.

Your group summary: experiencers (SP)
Your Type Summary: ISFP

sch reopens...

2005-07-28T01:02:00.000+09:00

sch reopens~!

short entry..

hahaha.. sch have restarted for mi.. just 3 days ago.. today no sch because of flag day.. went for meet the NTU ministry ppl.. got to know quite a few more new faces.. quite fun time of fellowship.. got to know some better.. other than that, it's been a super B-O-R-I-N-G wk.. nothing much exciting.. still can cope with sch coz all r lectures.. muahahaha.. a new day is going to begin soon.. and it's all going to be good..

I know I can't let you go
I know 'cause I've tried
And all the rivers and the oceans
can't hold back the tears that I cried

Loong time ago...

2005-07-24T01:45:00.000+09:00

hahaha.. seems like i'm renewing mi old habits of not updating of mi blog for a veri long time.. hahahaa.. it's been a total of 19 days since the last update.. thus u can see that nothing much happened in mi life.. kekeke..

the past few wks have come and passed mi by.. time just gone.. just like that.. packed with NTU ministry orientation camp and also hall sieben orientation camp.. hahaha.. quite fun for both camps.. and veri interesting too.. always going sentosa.. seems that's the onli place that orientations are held.. hahaha.. mi hall got quite alot of freshies.. and this yr surprisingly more females than males.. it's abt 1 1/2 to 1 male.. got 1 group 7 gals, 2 guys.. a sight i quite missed since sec sch where gals more than guys.. hahaha.. lost mi hp on the cab on the veri 1st day i went for the camp with may.. argh.. so was phoneless.. quite ok la.. but weird.. however, praise the Lord huifen found mi phone.. the cab uncle called her and passed the phone to her.. hahaha.. den after that, got the SP nite (quite fun, and so is mi junior..), iron chef, amazing race, Ultimate Beach Challenge, intiation, seniors vs juniors.. hahaha.. really enjoyable.. and that's y i love camps so much.. the fun, the interaction, the rubbish things we do.. hahaha.. overall the 5-day camp was quite fun but simply exhausted after everything.. and 1 of the female freshie looks like ryoko hirosue~! *drools* hahaha.. so kinda added colour to the whole camp for mi.. hahaha..

been travelling to malaysia last wk.. see mi auntie, uncle and grandma.. kinda miss them.. and mainly coz all 3 of them in hospital.. haha.. but all of them ok le.. nothing much also.. thanx for those who were concerned and worried.. really appreiciated it.. =)

sch's re-opening soon~! so exciting~! (dolly's voice) hahaha.. new frens, new classes, new stuffs to study and do.. kindalooking forward.. and i got mi hall application.. settling it on monday.. and i got mi forensic sci course.. watch out world, here comes the next grissom.. hahaha.. watched too much CSI le.. kekeke..

think that's all i could say.. unless i forgot something.. and if i forgot it, it's normally not important.. hahaha.. byuez.. ciaoz.. =)

another day.. another xianz day..

2005-07-05T01:37:00.000+09:00

hahahaa... it's been since a long time i blogged le.. hahaha.. nothing much to blog about though.. or not much things i wan to blog here so the whole world will know.. hahaha..

sometimes, i feel like a little cute confused kid (alright... i minus of the 'cute' part.. bleah..) in this big big world.. sometimes, people just really amazing or just plain confusing.. sometimes, u wun see the pt the other people is driving at or trying to change a part of u coz it seems so natural to u.. i mean.. since the beginning of ur knowledge, u din see it as a problem.. but as u grow, sometimes, it does become as a problem.. either it's a thorn in another person's eye or u r irritating another person.. even it maybe veri small.. but it can cause quite a lot of consequences.. it's not that i'm that sort of person.. but i feel that to me it's ok, maybe to another person it's not.. sounds confusing rite..? hahaha.. told u i'm a confused kid.. hahaha..

life's been not much of happenings except upcoming camps and conferences.. and mi SF performance~! yeah~! other than that.. just cruising along the holidays.. can u believe it that i have only met up 2 frens throughout the holidays..? oops.. correction.. make it 1.. hahaha.. miss all mi frens.. and i really wan to meet them up.. *eyeing at someone who's reading this blog and might wan to help organise class outing*.. hahaha.. anyway, going meet mi JC class soon.. so fun.. and as usual.. i'm the organiser.. hahaha.. sadz xia.. kekeke..

yupz.. that's all i got to say la.. nothing more le.. hahaha.. going play game now.. and tomolo got camp.. hahaha.. oooo..

Learning....

2005-06-22T02:19:00.000+09:00

hmmmm.. soemtimes, people just learn it the hard way..

even though there was an easier path, yet people will so easily miss it or ignore it..
either unconsciously or knowingly..

learnt something yesterday..
there's no such thing as cannot, impossible, unable..
it's only up to whether the person is willing to do it..

how true..

people learn when they r hurt the most not when they r comfortable..

apart from that, went for a bball tournament on monday.. so long never run for such a long distance le.. wanted to die liaoz.. hahaha.. den tues went to eat sakae sushi~! yum yum yum.. good food.. really enjoyed it.. hahahaha.. sushi, sushi, sushi.. think i'll dream of them tonite.. slurrrpppp.. yumz.. hahaha.. so next time anyone willing to treat mi to sushi..? kekeke..

tired le.. nitenite ppl..

2005-06-20T02:46:00.000+09:00

Just kinda tired, but just wanna come online to blog for a while..

it's been quite a week since i last blogged.. basically, nothing much happened too.. hahaha.. quite an uneventful week passed.. this coming week much to do le.. hahaha.. got bball match to prepare.. and going sakae sushi~!! yeah.. as many may not know.. i often has sushi craving.. hahaha.. so gonna eat mi full this week.. wuhoo~

kinda boring rite..? hahaha.. but indeed it's going upwards from here le..

Extraordinary

You take my breath away

Extraordinary

Makes a brighter day

Extraordinary

Way beyond the ordinary

Extraordinary

Being extraordinary is not a gift, u r not borned to be..
But you are when u make a decision to be..
it's not a gift, a blessing but a choice, a decision..

choose wisely, because the whole of your eternity depends on it..

2005-06-12T02:13:00.000+09:00

MENGENAL-MU
Sidney Mohede

Bila kubuka mataku
Dan lihat wajahMu
Ku terkagum

Bila kulihat hidupku
Dan karya tanganMu
Ku tersanjung

Kar'na semua yang baik
Dalam hidupku
Itulah karyaMu
Kau b'ri k'sempatan yang baru

Dan ku ingin mengenalMu, Tuhan
Lebih dalam dari s'mua yang kukenal
Tiada kasih yang melebihiMu
Ku ada untuk menjadi penyembahMu

Translation:
When I open my eyes
And look at Your face
I am amazed

When I look at my life
And all the works of Your hand
I am honored

Because all good things
In my life
They are Your wondrous works
You give a brand new chance

And I want to know You, God
Deeper than all that I have known before
There is no greater love than Yours
I am here to be Your worshipper

Extraordinary...

2005-06-12T01:49:00.000+09:00

EMERGE 2005

so fast.. it was all over.. all the late night practises, all the trainings, all finished in 3 days..

and indeed it is all worth it..

yeah..

it's more than a hype, it's more than a facade, it's more than a great vibe..
it's not just a huge bunch of young punks gathering together and listen to rock music..
it's not youths gathering together because they have nothing to do..
neither is it because that these were young people high on drugs, alcohols..

it's a bunch of teenagers coming together to worship the Great Almighty..
it's a gathering of believers who are willing to win the lost of Jesus Christ..
it's a place where the youths are refreshed by the Spirit of God, and anointed by Him..

This my friend, is the Emerge Youth Conference 2005

where Jesus takes centre stage.. and nothing else..

Let this not be a one-time event high for all of us.. but let us be fueled up for the rest of the year, till the next emerge. Until then, emerge and be extraordinary.. coz He is..

Aftermath:
basically physically tired with all the POS and talentime.. POS we got first~! wuhoo.. NTU rox~! hahaha.. as for talentime, thanx for all the support our frens have given.. we'll do better next time.. hahaha.. congrats to the trios~! the Jasons are simply phenorminal.. hahaha.. blew everyone away.. rock on, guys.. got tanned after xtreme sports.. kinda tight face now.. hahaha..
but everything has been great.. yeah.. =)

2005-06-05T03:27:00.000+09:00

i'm not an actor, i'm not a star
and i dun even have my own car
but i'm hoping so much you'll stay
that you will love me anyway..

but if u have decided to go.. i will just let u do so..
for i can't bear for u to be sad..

what is love..?
love is sacrificial, love benefits others compared to u.
love draws u to give the best for the other.
love brings out the best of one another.
love is standing strong with the other, through thick or thin,
good or bad, sickness or health.
love is encouraging, love is giving more than taking.
love is more than a feeling, love is a care and concern.
love is worrying for the person, when the person is not at home so late at night.
love is all about going the distance.

love is not about you. It's about the other party.

love is... something which i'm trying to grasp...

extracted and translated from the song, 'Chao Ren':
why is saving the whole world such an easy task?
but why is it so hard for me to save this relationship?
why is it that i can fly in the sky and do all things?
but why is it that i could not take the place in your heart?

PS: It's just a sudden post.. dun anyhow think.. =d

2005-06-03T03:24:00.000+09:00

Couldn't really sleep yet so just kinda thinking of dropping another post..

today was a good day.. went shopping with lyd.. for the jacket that we (actually, it's the gals.. hahaha..) need for the talentime performance.. walked around orchard to find the right jacket.. hahaha.. but in the end we end up with nothing except 2 pairs of tired legs.. hahaha.. And we kept on hearing the chipmunk's 'i'm so lonely' dunno for 2-3 times during 2 hours of shopping.. diaoz..

Had mi last german class today and it was mi oral exam.. wuhoo.. kinda fumbled alot.. think mi tutor nearly had a heart attack.. he told mi to work harder for mi upcoming exams on the 8th.. and it just clashes nicely with all mi talentime and POS.. great.. talked abt stetched capacity.. kekeke.. but kinda of enjoying it so far.. apart from the aching body that is.. pray it will stay in one piece at least until after emerge.. kekeke..

found out that alot of people have hidden talents somewhere out in the depth of their subconscious.. maybe YOU have it too.. just try digging deeper to find out what it is.. everyone has the ability to do something that other ppl cannot excel.. you are not who you are born to be, you are who you believe that you can be.. there's no limit except that which u set upon urself.. only when u have broken that limit, den u would know where u will be and u wold have grown much more..

kinda of remembered something by bro boon few wks ago.. Practice does not make perfect, it makes permanent.. how true.. using old methods for the same problems produce the same results.. u wun get anywhere further than that.. if u wanna have a different results, change ur methods of solving.. people often focused too much on the results to realise how far they have gone wrong..

tomolo is cheerleading time again~ hahaha.. wuhoo.. and guitaring~ yeah.. God, strengthen this child of urs.. =)

anyway, getting tired le.. hahaha.. finally wor.. goodnite, peepz.. goodnite, God..

2005-06-03T03:18:00.000+09:00

yesterday you ask me something i thought you knew,
so i told you with a smile,
it`s all about you.
then you whispered in my ear,
and you told me too,
said you made my life worthwhile,
it all about you.
and i would answer all your wishes,
if you ask me too.
but if you deny me one of your kisses,
dont know what i`ll do.
so, hold me close and say three words like you used to do.
dancng on the kitchen tiles,
it`s all about you.

PS: this was taken from somewhere else.. hahaha.. kinda find it nice den put it here.. enjoy.. =)

How Amazing You Are

2005-05-31T01:26:00.000+09:00

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you love me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall

New Blog~

2005-05-28T02:54:00.000+09:00

Hahaha... just want to further test it out somemore ba.. kekeke.. both blogs seems ok to me..

but this one DO looks easier to use.. hahaha..

these few weeks have been busy busy busy busy busy.. with cheerleading (YEAH~!), Talentime (dance category, INFINITY~! U ROX~!) and german course.. as i speak, i have not finished my german homework too.. hahahaha.. sad xia.. kekeke.. basically, that's mi life for the holidays..

and plainly hilarious, excited.. coz
INFINITY IS IN THE FINALS~!
great dudes and dudettes.. to rallen, lydia, joy, michael.. let's make it a great one for the finals..~! it's going to be tough, but let the tough get going~! All Glory To God~!

that means i cannot concentrate on mi favourite cheerleading le.. sob sob.. hahaha.. but nevermind la.. like what mi fren said.. greater calling.. hahaha.. the stunts we r doing r simply.. stunning.. hahaha.. great to have jesse around.. our powerful coach.. and all the strong bases and cute flyers~! (Xiaorong: DING~! DING~! =d) To all the NTU POS Cheerleaders, great job done ppl.. we're gonna knock them off~! hahaha.. great faith xia.. =)

life's been quite great to me.. in a sense i dun really recall bad events.. think so.. hahaha.. i have a good forgettary for all the -ve part of mi life.. hahaha.. learn quite alot of things in the process.. music-mixing, dancing with breaking.. oh ya.. i'm going for a backflipping course soon, i hope.. hahaha.. so i'll be able to do le pakour and freeflow too, i think.. hahaha.. but muz see whether mi bones wan to agree with mi anot.. hahaha..

anyway, i'm too tired to read what i am typing now also.. hahaha.. just wanna sleep.. good nitez.. have a great rest.. =d

First Blogging on Blogspot

2005-05-22T15:02:00.000+09:00

hahahaha.. just wanna test out everything..
kekekeke..

WeLcOmE tO mY LiFe.. Song:"I Wanna Grow Old with you"

2005-04-27T15:13:00.000+09:00

hahaha.. finally got to blog le.. after abt 1 month of lagging.. muauaahahaha...
now let mi see.. where should i start..? hmmmm.. though everyone has started to make their blogs into poem style.. wowz.. coolz.. maybe someday i'll do the same thing too.. writing in lines.. den make it into a song.. hmmmm.. good idea.. see how..
exams going to end soon~! actually this coming fri is mi last paper.. that's y got time to come online to blog.. muahahaha.. last paper = understanding chinese cinema.. woot~ alot of things need to be remembered and argue.. debating xia.. hopefully, will be able to clear this successfully.. hahaha.. but soon, after exams, new lessons going to start~.. and that's mi german course~! interesting xia.. 4 wks, 3 days, 4 hours each.. wuhoo.. talk abt intensive.. and it's gonna be~ alright~
just found out that mi 'holidays' will be super-packed.. german course, cheerleading practice, dance practice, guitar practice, tuition stuffs.. wowz.. wonder how in the world m i going to find work.. hahaha..
dance practice gonna start once mi final paper is over.. going to be intensive too.. hope that it will end up a good one~ yeah~~ dance~ dance~ dance~ dance before the King~
think that's all le ba.. coz too long never write le so dunno wad to write le.. muahahaha.. but if u should know wad happened to mi.. u should have known le ba.. kekeke.. just too lazy to go through everything again.. =)
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aNoThEr DaY, aNoThEr DaY... Song:"Go the Distance"

2005-03-29T15:10:00.000+09:00

hmmm... rare rite.. such a recent update from mi last update.. woah.. kekeke.. coz i'm so stressed up with mi studies that i need to take a break somewhere.. listening to mi frens doing their presentations..
more and more people are having blogs~ hahaha.. i have whole chunk of list of people who have blogs.. and the more blogs i see, the more unattractive mine is.. hahaha.. would appreciate if anyone can volunteer to help to redesign it.. hehehe.. maybe during mi holidays ba.. kekeke..
finished mi EASTER PERFORMANCE le~~! wuhoo~~ i'm finally relieved of mi angel duties and returned to human form.. hahaha.. kidding.. but really, the performance was a great one and really many received salvation~! PTL! PTL! PTL! Great is the Lord, greatly to be praised~! and all the thanks to all the angels and demons, and the backstage crews like sis jennifer, fiona, zulia, hongfang, lydia, doreen.. thanx gals for all the help u have given.. really appreciate it.. U have made it happened~! but it all came to an end.. quite fast too.. all the late nites.. hahaha..
but really, i was never not amazed by the mercy and grace of God.. on even though He's our Father, yet was wanting to save us from our depths.. Jesus was so willing to give up His life for us, just like the song, Go the Distance.. once u heard it, u'll understand wad i mean..
time to start studying le.. though i dun really like but this is the time for mi to study le.. hahaha.. a time for everything..
study lo~~~!

Welcome to My LifE~ Song:"Perfect"

2005-03-23T15:10:00.000+09:00

Hmmmmm.. it's been 1 mth since i updated here le.. hahaha..
so long until i forgot wad else i can say.. kekeke..
basically been busy with strikeforce and easter performance and studies.. gotta do everything at the same time.. hahaha.. grow in mi capacity ba.. today just ended prac so.. just come online to write mi blog since i've haven written on it for ages..
school's been ok.. wad can be so abnormal about school, eh..? hahaha.. people's quite ok too.. oh ya.. got mi GE.. german~ wuhoo.. hahaha.. but never got into psycho.. sad.. hahaha.. but nevermind.. i'll scor well in this nevertheless.. =d one thing is i'll have a hard time finding part-time jobs den.. haiz.. decisions, decisions, decisions..
oh ya.. have been exercising more frequently le.. kekeke.. to lose weight and to be more tan.. hahaha.. miss the great outdoors..
Imperfection.. Flawful.. Faulty.. everyone of us is just like that.. brokened.. imperfect.. full of flaws.. just like in a story i heard lately, about a little girl who had a porcelain angel and loved it lots.. one day, it was knocked off the shelf by daddy and it fell from great heights and was broken to pieces.. shattered.. the dad was trying frantically to piece it back, but it was no longer like the angel which was like before.. the daddy den told the little girl, that y not he throw it away, and get her a new one..
and guess what the little girl said..
'daddy, some things need not be perfect for me to love it........'
wow.
Talk about maturity. Talk about innocence. Talk about the purest of love, untainted, uncorrupted.
Imperfect things do not mean that they cannot have their chance of being given the priviledge of being loved. People will always have imperfections. It's when u look beyond that imperfections and look deep into the heart of the person, den u will know the person much much better. Perfect love is not to love a perfect person, but to love a person perfectly...
Come to the Father Though your gift is smallBroken hearts, broken livesHe will take them allThe power the wordThe power of His bloodEverything was doneSo you would come

Another Day of Tomorrow... (Song: Accidental in love)

2005-02-22T15:09:00.000+09:00

Hmmmm.. 8 days after valentines' day and 3 days after Chingay event and 1 more day to Yuan Xiao (15th day of the Lunar New Year).. and another fortnightly update.. this one a bit late.. kekeke..
So.. (er.. wad's the word..? wonderous..? never was good with english..) to see that tim passes u so fast.. and before u know it.. it's gone.. a man said before, u would not treasure whatever u have till it's lost.. for mi.. i treasure it when i have it.. but now.. i really missed it when it's finally lost.. Chingay pals.. gonna miss u all.. heck.. i've been missing u guys the day Chingay ended.. hahahaha.. all the chio bus and yan daoz of Chingay cheerleaders.. Rock ON~! yeah.. someday.. we'll meet again.. i wanna work with u all again.. seriously.. the laughter that we have.. the additional trainings.. the staying until kena chased by all the leaders in Chingay.. hahaha.. those r the things, mi fren.. that we've spent together, grown closer to each other.. quite similar to last post hor.. hahaha.. coz i really really wanna say thanks for everything, big or small.. u've played a role in mi life.. even though it was a short while.. it's one worth remembering.. =)
(Cheerleader attendance: angel, esther, claire, tania teresa(ah ha.. got ur name rite le..kekeke..), nadine(nerd.. so mean.. =x), peggy, joy, lydia,yiling(1-0), ian, rallen, UNCLE DARRYL (oops.. =p), adrian(a-drain.. whatever.. kekeke) jiahao, kenneth, anthony(ang tao ni.. mi bro look alike).......)
valentines' day came and gone.. hahaha.. no flowers~! No chocolates~! No sweets~! this is the saddest vday, man.. hahaha.. but the cheerleader gals made up by buying this hugecake for us.. awwwwwww... so sweet.. both the gals and the cake.. so nice.. was quite touched lar.. kekeke.. quite a memorable vday, i feel.. so special.. hahaha.. love ya gals and guys.. other than that, vday was like normal other days to me.. except u see more couples holding hands compared to other days.. and flowers are all so visable everywhere.. to all those who are attached: be good to the one who's holding ur hand rite now.. kekeke.. to those who are not attached like mi: dun worry.. u'll find ur prince on black horse and princess soon.. hahaha.. just be patient.. it's a virtue.. kekeke.. =d
Chinese new yr came and pass.. not much ang baoz and visiting.. but got uncles come visit lar.. but i was busy doing chingay stuffs.. hahaha.. upcoming.. Easter~! before thaz.. Chingay ppl, u rox~! did a resounding success at Chingay.. wuhoo~ the most energetic youths around.. and noisy too.. hahahaha.. coolz.. now, going to plan for easter le.. exciting.. wonder what's it going to be this time.. kekekeke.. =d
EMERGE CONFERENCE 2005 is coming too~! and we have........ CHEERLEADING again~! wuhoo.. love it.. gonna train with mi uni palz.. gonna be fun, gonna be great, gonna be coolz.. coz we all are~! hahaha.. din mix much with mi uni palz so this is quite a good time to build up the relationship with them.. to get to know them better..
Malaysia trip on yesterday~ monday 21/2.. went over to jb to do some shopping.. (actually onli han shopped.. mi and jingling was just accompanying him.. tsk tsk tsk..) haha.. den we went walk walk.. went to redbox(not k-box..) to sing.. quite cheap.. 6 hours for RM60plus.. sing until sore le.. hahaha.. den went to eat dinner den went back le.. oh yah.. ate supper with weiling and guoxiong.. veri fun ppl of mi PE class~! crappy ppl also.. hahaha.. den go back hostel le..
anyway, just got up.. hahaha.. going for prac soon.. good afternoon, world~

6 days after mi bday...

2005-01-31T15:09:00.000+09:00

Yoz, WorLD~
it was like 6 days after mi bday.. wanted to come online that day to write one but was too tired to do it.. so i'll do a monthly summary again.. ooohh.. no.. it's a fortnightly update.. hahahha... okok.. here goes.......
life's been quite good lar.. considering i'm trying to remember what happened to mi at the last past 2 weeks.. apparently, not good for mi guitar at least.. mi guitar broke it's tightening screw head and i cannot tune mi 3rd string.. haiz.. and adrian broke mi 4th string just now.. haiz.. anyone willing to sponsor an acoustic guitar for mi..? hahaha.. i need to prac also, recently too busy with stuffs till little time to prac also..
and the main thing on mi mind is CHINGAY and ha! ha! ha! STRIKEFORCE~! wuhoo~~~ this is where u will find the coolest and hippest and most fun ppl around.. prac was hard, and sis justinn was harsh.. understandable, considering the commitment level of the whole group.. 29th was our rehearsal at PA.. quite cool, everyone did well except for slight glitches.. kekeke.. but everyone gave their best and there was no regrets about it.. familiar..?hahahah.. anyway, improvements are on the way.. and veri tiring coz of the constant changes.. but like wad bro tan boon said.. if we never try, we'll never know whether we can make it anot.. true.. so gonna do all mi best for the event.. to strive for the best and onli settle for the best.. Yeah~
hahaha.. as usual.. mi am a veri low profile person.. so mi birthday was a bit low profile also.. hahaha.. onli receive one but expensive gift.. CK Truth perfume for Men~! yeah.. coolx huh.. first time getthing such things as gifts.. do they mean that i stink..? hmmmm.. hidden interpretation.. hmmmm.. anyway.. mi actual birthday was quite a quiet one.. without much ppl noticing it..muahahha.. day was filled with lectures until 630..den after that rushed down to PA.. den.. really, i felt that my biggest present has always been given to me.. mi great frens.. the strikeforce cheerleaders(not in any order), rallen, adrian, jiahao, reid, darryl, kenneth, ian, anthony, claire, yiling, esther(mi flyer), nadine, angel, lydia, peggie, the backup gal(hahaha.. sorri lar.. unitl now, i still dunno ur name.. but i think i heard ur frens call u tan ya.. or something like that.. kekeke..) maybe someday u all will read this, but i just wan to say a veri big THANK U for alllllll the joy u all have brought into mi life thru chingay cheerleading.. esp rallen => joker, talented.. who never fails to perk up anybody's day.. adrian, mi side by side partner who has great leadership skills.. and the rest of the guys, who were great too.. always so funny and coolx.. and the gals, well seldom talk to u all also except claire.. hahaha.. but seriously, i will miss u all after chingay.. though after chingay, we'll see each other, but it's thru chingay we got closer.. the cheerleading before and after every prac.. the late nite supper at iman's prata shop (and i found out it's not a 24-hour shop.. cheat~!) with the milo aaaaaaaaa (dino) and the meh-meh kumbing(mutton) soup and the praise & worship session in between.. the extra practices all of us put in.. guess that's what build the bond between all of us ba.. after chingay, maybe we wun be as close as before, i dunno.. just wanna say a big thanx for all the memories that u have given to mi.. =)
yawn.. good nitez, all.. i need to sleep.. onli slept 5 hours the past few days tho super tired.. so need to rest le.. z..z.z.z.z.z.z.z.z.z.z.z.zz...

Rest

2005-01-18T15:08:00.000+09:00

Rest --- gotten this from a fren of mine, huiping.. somehow, it's at the right place at the right time that i saw ur blog.. God always uses people to talk to us, to bless us, often eh..? =)
Oh Lord, i am wearytired and weak,once again,i come and kneel down at ur feet.
I've dropped my cross.I've forgotten what life is about. I've forgotten ur voice,embraceur touch.
"My child," You said."You know that i love uAll along, i've been waitingright here. Waiting for uto come back and return to me.I'll dry ur tears n comfort u.I'll be ur help in times of need.I'll be ur shelter, ur fortressYour tower of refuge and strength."
tears streaming down my faceall ur love, mercy n graceoverwhelms me.Safe and warm in my Father's arms.Forgiven.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give u rest." Matthew 11:28

Just another day.........................of cheerleading~

2005-01-07T15:08:00.000+09:00

today is a veri good day.. actually everyday is a good day.. but today is one cool day.. got cheerleading prac~ wuhoo..with mi chingay pals.. veri fun.. throwing ppl around.. coz i'm not the person flying.. muahahahaha.. a bit veri tired coz we trained from 5 to 11.. to get everything proper.. ptl~! we all tahan everything.. but got alot of changes also, so it isn't really veri complicated.. just simple and nice.. ours gonna be the best performance in chingay~! hahahaha.. muz always believe that u r the best mahz, no matter what people say..
"I dream.. to be.. the hero's that in me.. i dream.. i dream.." taufik's song, familiar to most.. be the hero that's in all of us.. to become the veri best of our potential.. not to turn back in life one day and regret abt things but be proud of what i have done with mi life.. that's the direction of mi life, in short and sweet sentences.. kekeke.. yupz.. like what i said to mi fren.. i'm going to be a man of destiny.. where mi purpose is fulfilled.. and mi joy will be full.. =)
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... i love cheerleading~ seriously, i dun mind doing cheerleading for ANY event.. maybe coz it's in mi genes that i love to dance.. anyway..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz sleeping le..

New YEAR~!

2005-01-05T15:07:00.000+09:00

Hmmmm.. first bloggie of the new year.. wad should i say..? the whole world is met with a tsunami, throwing half of the southeast asia in major chaos.. oh yah.. plus india side too.. haiz.. certainly not a good way to end the year.. but still we crossed over to 2005..
new year resolution~~! lose weight~! number uno goal.. gotta lose some.. eat less, exercise more.. other than that, still in the process of planning.. kekeke..
CHINGAY IS COMING~~! woah~ anyone wan to see mi again on tv, please keep in tune for the chingay parade, i'll be doing cheerleading~ one of mi most most most favourite sport~~ (if it can be considered as one..)
CNY also coming.. dunno going back malaysia anot.. go see mi relatives.. see how they r.. celebrate CNY there.. i love malaysia food.. yum yum yum.. i wan to eat malaysia food.. cheap and good.. hungry~~~
kekekee.. nitenite everyone~ it's 3 in the morning and i got lecture at 830.. haahaha..

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

2004-12-12T15:05:00.000+09:00

Hmmmm... as u all can see.. i seldom update mi bloggie.. once in a blue moon, perhaps.. hahaha.. too busy with stuffs.. i'm a busy man.. kekeke.. so now the updating begins....................................................
now got into the percussions team, STRIKEFORCE~! great fun.. performing for chingay.. yeah.. alot of steps need to remember.. complicated.. but still.. great fun.. look out for mi at the big screen during chingay~ kekeke..
other than that, nothing much happening in mi life.. waiting for mi results to come out.. exciting.. hope can get good results xia.. muz do well.. ya lor..
involved in alot activities recently.. alot of stuffs to do, to complete.. school's heavy too with IH games in full swing.. gotta take alot of pics.. borrowing mi roomie's digicam.. kekeke.. nice to use..
went to mi onli chalet in the whole of Dec.. coolz, funz, enjoyablez.. everything u need, it's a the chalet.. kekeke.. wan to watch incredibles but no one to watch with.. sob sob.. alot of movies look nice.. got to know alot of the ppl better in mi cg..
anyway, CHRISTMAS IS COMING~! Wuhoo~~ yeah.. time of enjoyment for all.. fully booked on the eve and the day itself le.. hahaha.. yeah.. time of celebration.. missed last yr's celebration though.. veri funz.. anyway, gonna be a great holidayz anyway..
that's all.. sleepy.. sick.. vomitted the whole day le.. hope i'll get well soonz.. sob sob..

AnOtHeR dAY, aNoThEr TiMe...

2004-11-17T15:05:00.000+09:00

another day at hostel.. yawn.. preparing for mi effective communication paper on thurs~! wuhoo.. life's never been better.. onli 2 days left till mi final paper.. which we still have to pass.. argh.. no similar to GP.. hmmm.. watched alot of shows lately.. mainly cartoons and animations and stuffs like that, plus animes.. time just flies like that eh..? hehehe.. no computer games to play.. so just come online and zhuo bo and read other peepz journal.. kinda of interesting how most people wun show their feeling to other ppl but just so fluently expresses themselves in a computer journal that's read by many... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. weird humanz.. people r just plain weird, and so am i and u.. time to brun mi data to disc le.. left onli 1G plus of space.. hmmmmm.. need bigger harddisk.. *grumble grumble*..
kinda writing rubbish.. coz sleepy sleepy...z.z.z..z.zzzz and hungry.. nothing left to bite.. just mouth itchy actually.. need something to bite.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... *bites bread*
lalallalalalalalalalalalallalalalalalallallalalalaa.... happy... sha la la.. it's so nice to be happy~ yeah.. sleepz............

ExAmS, eXaMs, ExAmS...

2004-11-02T15:04:00.000+09:00

exams, exams, exams..
so fast going to have mi exams soon le... after 2 1/2 years of slacking around in work, now is the time to rack mi brain cells over some physics equations.. first paper tomolo and i'm still here..~! hahaha.. just resting awhile before do mi final revision.. so.. ya.. so excited~ hahaha... going bonkers..
all the best for those having exams~! we can do it~! =)

A pEnNy FoR yOuR tHoUgHtS...

2004-10-22T15:04:00.000+09:00

Just wanna come on here and just doodle some rubbish.. hahaha.. life's been good to me.. everything's still not bad.. apart from exams drawing near, all the rest are still not that problematic.. still trying to learn mi percussions stuffs.. hitting drums.. dum dee dee dum.. gonna rock the world with mi music.. care to join me in a jamming session..? think next time u maybe will be finding me in mi own world tour.. going around jamming to millions and millions of people all over south-east asia, China, Taiwan, Korea, Indonesia, den to US and europe.. along with mi pals, going to keep on rocking the world.. yeah yeah yeah yeah.. (Hey... a kid can dream, can't he..? kekeke.. life's all made out of dreams wad.. bleahz...)
gotta wrestle with mi work again.. not before i watch mi daily dosage of CSI.. hahaha... nice show.. love the way the solve the mysteries.. coolz... envy.. i wanna be a forensics too~! can i be a forensic percussionist..? hmmm.. new job.. hahaha.. crapz.. sleeep.zzz.z.zz.zz..zzz.zzzzz

I wAnNa To HoLd U tILL i DiE, tiLL wE bOtH bReAkDoWn AnD cRy, I wAnNa HoLd YoU tILL tHe FeAr In Me SuBsIdE

2004-10-15T15:03:00.000+09:00

I wAnNa To HoLd U tILL i DiE, tiLL wE bOtH bReAk DoWn AnD cRy, I wAnNa HoLd YoU tILL tHe FeAr In Me SuBsIdE
Sometimes, i wish that i could be lying in the arms of an angel.. without the cares of this world.. sometimes, it can be tiring just being urself.. misunderstood, so tired.. expectations to meet, so tired.. mi need a pillow..
everyone seems to be trying to reach the expectation that others have of themselves.. sometimes, it's quite invisible.. and u may not know it's there.. sometimes, it maybe ur own expectation of urself.. but u would wan to be the person others wan u to be.. that, in itself, can be quite tiring.. just wanna rest.. sometimes all we need is a break, a breather, to find back ourselves again.. where it all began..
anyway, has been veri sick these few days... with flu and cough.. argh.. exams r near.. cannot afford to be sick.. must be well and do well for mi exams.. yeah~!

Love Love Love~

2004-10-12T15:02:00.000+09:00

Just watched 50 first dates.. yes.. just.. actually.. half an hour ago.. quite a nice show.. and sweet too.. about how henry (adam sandler) tried to date lucy (drew barrymore).. treating everyday like a new fresh day.. like what the people say, how he made her fall in love with her every single day.. it's as though as it was their first day in love.. cool huh..? it was quite a sad accident but yet it brought out such sweetness of the love.. wonder.. wonder.. wonder.. wonder how would i try to made mi princess fall in love with me every single day.. hahaha.. would be a veri challenging thing, i guess.. but it's a sweet movie, no doubt.. anyway, kinda into the love topic recently.. dunno y.. coz i'm still trying to think of other topics..? anyway, dun mind mi.. mi just crapping..
Exams r near~! i've got frens who are even counting down the numbers of days to exams.. -_-''' stressed..not really lar.. coz most of the subjects still not that bad.. those bad ones are the super bad one.. need to work harder.. =)
Early morning.. and i'm not sleeping.. coz i need to prepare mi speech on thurs.. haizzZzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

I wAnNa MaKe YoU sMiLe, WhEnEvEr YoU'rE sAd, CaRrY yOu ArOuNd WhEn YoUr ArThRiTiS iS bAd, All I WaNnA dO, iS gRoW oLd WiTh YoU...

2004-10-11T15:01:00.000+09:00

I wAnNa MaKe YoU sMiLe, WhEnEvEr YoU'rE sAd, CaRrY yOu ArOuNd WhEn YoUr ArThRiTiS iS bAd, All I WaNnA dO, iS gRoW oLd WiTh YoU...

hmm.. nice song, isn't it..? haha.. havn't heard of it..? well, it's sung by a funny guy whose name is called adam sandler.. this was the song from the movie the wedding planner, if i remember.. quite a sweet song, isn't it..? and the song title is... *drumrolls*.. u guessed it.. Grow old with you.. nice ya.. hmm.. have u found someone to really say these words to or really grow old with..? your bf/gf..? your life long partner..? but would anyone still believe that such things are still around..? believing that an everlasting love, or even a lifelong love..? do anyone still believe that they are able to find someone to really to love, in sickness and in health, in riches and in poor, to comfort, to hold, to protect, till death do us apart..? well.. at least, i do.. ya.. i'm still the 'conservative' type of person and definitely not the 'in' type.. i still believe that when u love a person, u'll love the person till death seperates(not the same as u love the person to be dead.. quite different actually.. and definitely loving A person, not MANY persons.. ya.. =D ) such commitment, especially a wedding, is a life long commitment, not as long as ur hair, not 'till we still have feelings', or 'till i find any fault in u or i really cannot stand u'.. but really one that's till the end of ur last breath.. commitment means u'll n stay together to solve any problem that u all faced, not running away from it.. problems dun have legs.. everybody can run away but it's not going to budge.. it's just sitting there until someone deals with it.. still love (never failed to be touched too~ ) to see an old couple holding hands, enjoying each other's company.. so sweet.. saw that few mths back at orchard during v-day.. the old man holding the flowers and the old woman.. both of them smiling so happily, in the admiration of many.. maybe next time it'll be mi.. =d definitely wan to be such a couple..
By the way, thanx for all the concern of mi readers but, nope.. i'm not attached.. =D

After a While --- Veronica Shoffsta

2004-09-13T14:58:00.000+09:00

After a While

After a while you learn the subtle difference between

holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn

that love doesn't mean leaning

and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts

and presents aren't promises,

and you begin to accept your defeats

with your head up and your eyes ahead,

with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today

because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans

and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns

if you get too much, so you plant your own garden

and decorate your own soul

instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure,

you really are strong, you really do have worth,

and you learn and you learn.

With every goodbye, you learn.

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Just looking at some past files and suddenly just wanna put this one here.. ^-^ (coz basically i've nothing to put in here le.. =d )

HArlowz~ as if anyone will hear..

2004-09-03T14:58:00.001+09:00

Hmmmm.. it's been quite a while since i've step into this place.. last entry was in june.. hmmm.. kekeke.. thinking if an quite busy with mi sch stuffs.. and also i dun have a computer with mi that's logged onto the internet.. life's hectic.. quite alot of things to do.. alot of tutorials.. kinda slipping away.. losing of what i'm fighting for.. the vision is kinda losing it's grip, it's focus.. some say if there is a power that can ressurrect a dead man up, surely there will be a power that can carry thru all this.. but somehow, i just wanna stay here a while.. just tired.. tired.. i know it's wrong.. but i'll wan to pick myself up again.. for the time being, i just wanna stay that way.. am i following the path that some of the people has chosen...? i really dunno.. i just wanna lay down and sleep..
just sent 2 frens off to another country.. one to sweden, another to canada.. maybe someday, it'll be me.. GERMANY, here i come~! kekeke.. think only a few bored people will be sitting here, reading mi things.. sometimes, i dun even understand miself.. or i chose not to understand.. it's mi unknown area, which neither mi nor ppl know.. learnt it during effective comm just now.. cool huh..? sense of identity, sense of belonging.. where is it now..? still there, i guess.. i'll need to continue to search ba..
If you face Him with all His glory, what would you ask Him if you had just one question...?

HArlowz~ as if anyone will hear..

2004-09-03T14:58:00.000+09:00

I'M tRyInG tO fOrGeT tHaT i'M aDdIcTeD tO yOu..

2004-06-22T14:57:00.000+09:00

I'M tRyInG tO fOrGeT tHaT i'M aDdIcTeD tO yOu.. All I WaNtEd, All I nEeDeD, i'M aDdIcTeD tO yOu.. WhEn It'S oVeR, GoNnA fOrGeT wHaT u SaId.. AnD i WiLL nEvEr WaNnA dO iT aGaIn..
a new song that's running in mi head these few days.. research has shown that it's not been found the reason y some songs get trapped in ur mind for a certain time.. this is one of the few that's running in my head.. is it because of that person..? i dunno, never got such problem before.. hmmm.. dun really focus on it also..
work is good~~~! going end everything soon.. and it's going to end earlier than i expected~! wuhoo~~! that's the way.. uh huh uh huh.. i like it.. uh huh uh huh..
packing mi room.. packing mi room.. packing mi room.. seems alot of things are being lost, while others are being found again.. no place to put mi stuffs also.. haiz.. renovations.. bleahz.. guitar practice roX~!
nothing else to write.. so trying to waste more spaces..
good day to all~!
-= HoW lOnG wIll I bE wAiTiNg.. UnTiL tHe EnD oF tiMe.. =-

Mi Mi Mi Mi...

2004-06-17T14:57:00.000+09:00

hmmmmm...
too busy with outings recently... Sentosa, ubin.. been burnt till too much le... but good... love the tan, wanna get it back like mi JC days... hahaha... coolz... alot of stuffs need to be done.. but still coolz... hahaha... u all may think i'm crazy but there are things u love to do and there are things u don't really like... mine is the first case...
nothing much to be updated also lar... just busy busy busy...
LOVE FRIENDSTER~! Just found a few long lost frens whom i lost contact quite a long time ago... coolz... love the guy who came up with this... hahaha...
Gotta sleep early... got match the next morning... =)

Mi LiFe ReCeNtLy

2004-06-11T14:51:00.000+09:00

So long never write one entry le... think there was something wrong with the diary-x thingy... anyway...
finally clearing leave le~! Wuhoo... though still got much rubbish to clear... sad manz... but most of the things are ok... so it's onli being recalled back only for a while... quite good lar... quite thankful for such good campmates too...
To someone in my mind all these while... i will not give up on u... u were the closest to me and i would never want to see u fall deeper... i want to see u back again, back to where u were... but the choice is not up to me, but up to u... the words i want to say have been said, the decision is up to u... i should have known u were falling and should have pulled u back... yet, there are limited things that one can do... sad isn't it..? hope this is not too late yet... i really do hope so... love ya loads...
sometimes, the world seems to crumbling down within... but i will arise, but not by my own strength... for He will see mi through... there's much more things i need to prepare myself for first... and i will conquer every difficulty that's standing in the way...